mistake

there's a time i regret and i cant stop thinking about it

its like i get

a feeling

come up from the depths of my gut

sitting

waiting

till times up

so i can up chuck

on the decision to be made

leavin a mess to be cleaned

and in the chaos of things my mind gets fucked

like i'm drugged up

or something

so in the end

i'm left

feelin like i dont know where ive been

'cause before

yea

before

i felt like i was alive then

but now all i can do

is give an endearing little grin

Avi and I

were doing this for fun. but also not for fun. were doing it for the obvious reasons. thats why were doing it. its sophisticated and satisfying.

May Cause Dizziness Do Not Operate Heavy Machinery

the holes in my mouth.
the blood in my mouth.
the teeth in my mouth.
the pressure i feel against my temples
the pills
when the sweat doesnt come out of my pores and it should
or
when i want more i end up getting less when i lose more
or
how i feel when i dance to bad music
when i look at my self in the mirror but i dont
or how i feel when i look at the boat
when i met her
she made me feel that way
the shoes i wore then
and before then
or
thursday in the car when i couldnt see
and now how i feel
now
and the girl that i love
that doesnt know i love her
and every time i look at a screen
when i look for too long
what my teeth think about me when i dont brush them
when the blinds shake but theyre not
how i feel now
now how i feel
not real
or when i moved
or when i _loved
when i ___________read i always want to fall asleep
when i thought i was dead
when i said i like the _rain
then when i said it __again
or now with the feeling in my throat
the one i get when ive been on a liquid diet for three days after loosing all of my wisdom

teeth.

but mostly the girl i love
that doesnt know i love her

treasure

oh my god

they took it